take it in stride

I was a girl scout, so while I may not be ready on time, I am always prepared.

rejection

you wear it so well!

which way are you going?

to or from?

like a moth to a flame

I'm a little bit drawn to dysfunction.

everything is fleeting

In an hour, I can go from fists clenched and fuming to laughing about it all.

When I woke up my life was pathetic. Now my life is just funny.

on a Saturday night alone / personal

it felt good to shower and get dressed at midnight with the intention of leaving my house.

i needed a a late night walk. i wanted to be around people, but i had no one to call. all my friends are asleep, or gone, or pregnant.

so i drove to park st. because my mom insisted that i drive somewhere rather than walk as i said goodbye. (but i'm a grown up)

i walked around the neighborhood a few times. returned some things to the library, watched the bros leave bars in packs, women with skinny ankles about to tip over in too high heels.

i thought about stopping in for a drink somewhere, but i only had $7 in cash with me, and didn't want to order something too expensive.

i passed lost weekend, cemetry gates was playing. i like that song so i walked slow.

witnessed a brawl in front of scobie's, and the dispersion of people when the cops came. that place always feels like a fight waiting to happen. in the aftermath, a guy limping across the street in his shorts and slip-on plimsolls.

10 to 2, everything was closing so i sat in my car.

then i drove to the base, past the memories, recent and old. i parked near the dog park, an empty lot tonight. across the estuary, barges stacked high with shipping containers. listening to the dj play some michael jackson on kalx.

the end

my phone

doesn't ring anymore.

incensed

and i'm not sure if it's justifiable.

Night

is the best time of day.

Hop on my train

it's free.

Red, red vines

Today I went drugstore-hopping. At each drugstore, a customer in front of me was buying Red Vines. One woman couldn't wait and was chewing on a piece before she even made her purchase. Apparently, Red Vines are the must-have item of the day.

august greetings

I dread August. The feeling creeps up a couple weeks into July, and sticks around until I can count down the days to September on one hand.

As far as I can tell, it all began in 2001. Maybe it's because it was because of that bad UTI I had in August 2001 (everyone needs to know :-D), or it could be remnants of the major anxiety I felt about beginning high school. But I did go to the Happiest Place On Earth® that August, so...

This might sound weird, but part of me thinks it has something to do with the angle of the sun. Just like I don't like January because it's too bright compared to December. There is something about August sunlight that I don't like.

That is all.

cliche

You look at yourself, and the choices you've made and wonder: who have I become?

And is any of this real?

shedding

I've let go of a lot of beliefs over the years, and I am content with my choice to leave most of them behind. Some though, I just can't desert because they make up such a huge part of my understanding of how to function as a person in this world, even if I sound crazy talking about it.

things kids say

"Abby feels like a pig."

"What do you mean?"

"She was born in a pig. I was born in a dog."

"My doctor said I'm not getting enough calcium since I stopped eating cereal, so I need a constant supply of milk at night."

"My dad made his world famous chili, and by world famous, I mean world famous. And well, by that I mean it could be."

"I'm looking for a princess to marry, would you want to marry me?"

"We can meet later, I'm busy now."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I have to get busy now."

"I've asked all the princesses and no one wants to marry me. I guess I'll get my horse and go live by the river."

"Go back home and cry."

"I wish I wasn't a spider."

"But you're not a spider."

"If I was I wish I wasn't a spider."

"You have a best friend? Just like I have a best friend? Oh, that's very nice Kai. We could be sisters."

"You're my dad and you growed up to be a real princess."

"They call her a toy poodle, but she's really a real dog."

Guessing game with a 2-year-old (and her 4-year-old sister):

Me: I'm thinking of something that is black and white.

2-year-old: Blue!

Me: No, not blue. Can you think of something that has the colors black and white?

2-year-old: Yellow!

Me: Not yellow.

2-year-old: I give up.

Wondering about something...

Why do Prius owners drive so slow?

AvPD?

Just doing my thing and feeling insecure about it.

(and trying to fit myself into a category)

Our lawn is not a litterbox

you cat.

Impatiens

I'm always in a rush now. Trying to get to work as fast as I can. Trying to get home as fast as I can. Taking all the shortcuts (that aren't so short after all). Watching the clock, waiting for it to hit 12:30, or 1:30, or 3:00.
While I'm riding my bike, "MOVE ************," to the bird in my path.
I had three near death experiences on the freeway today.
I yell at red lights and drivers who obey the speed limit.

I used to have a lot of patience. I used to be present. What's happening to me?

Over the bridge

We'll cross it when we get there.

Pineapple

There's a pineapple on my kitchen counter.

I looked at it and thought to myself, "if I could live in a fruit, I would live in a pineapple."

Then I realized that Spongebob already does and that would make me unoriginal.

Being original is very important to me and my generation.

The end.

Life-long learner

Now I only hold my breath when I'm underwater.

Purple

Bed

Where I write, toss and turn, sleep and sometimes dream.

Elusion

Security is an illusion.

Missing the bus

Always the one you're on.

Family portrait

8/11/06

I am

looking for clarity through a foggy lens.

Message in a bottle

Snoot

Every mess I'm in

is one that I made.

Bus stop

Terrible hands

Salty Ballerina

Old, still ringing in my ears

I thought she was an angel!

Flavour of the week

Goddess in the bathtub

Where's my ambrosia?

Thought

Does looking in a mirror count as self-reflection?

The circle of (love)life

Can't always get what you want.

Substance

I've got nothing.

LA to Bakersfield

LA to Bakersfield, a photo by k is for on Flickr.

Title

Now she talks in past tense.

Blitter

Is this a blog or a twitter?

Termites

Turn houses into circus tents.

Poppy seeds

They are so small. I can hardly taste them. Why do we eat them?

Beliefs

I believe in:
fishing for compliments
leaving dishes in the sink
tying knots in your shoelaces

synchronic

- Air Miami
- Albatross
- Arizona
- Buttercream
- Dandy
- 11:11
- Frosting
- Oregon

Multitasking

I'm sitting here in my parents house, where I live, with a stomachache, eating frosting out of a bowl, and chatting with some dude on okcupid about my post-college lack of career goals. Livin' the American dream right here.

Is a blog still a blog...

if it has no blogger?

Things that boys should not say to girls they are the least bit interested in

- While on a date with a girl who lives at home: After the girl has to answer a phone call from a parent, a boy should not ask, "Do your parents know where you are?" then proceed to smile creepily and make a *wink wink* face at the girl.

- "Let's get married," should not be followed by the words, "You seem hassle free."

- When complimenting a girl whose mother you have seen pictures of: "Your mom is beautiful, and so are you."